Rose Wand Gardens....

Veggies, Herbs, Flowers.... Oh My!
I am in the planning stage of beginning my garden for next year, and I am so excited!
Why you may ask?  Just because of the simple joy of being able to have a place where I can actually have a garden.  I have tried for many years, gone through the whole process of planning, mapping, picking and choosing plants/seeds for my exact..not just general ...growing zone for my site, only to have to move before it can happen.   Well knock on wood....I am at it again!
This is my project, this is what makes me happy inside, this is part of the new me.  I now have a cute little place, and I don't spend way to much time on the inside of it.  So at first I will be doing the planning, but at the first chance I get I will be making the outside transform.  I am on a wholistic mission, this is step one!  Sending out White Light and Blessings to all, have a great day!

Busy, Busy, Busy....

When one think goes bad...I try to look at the positive.  I am far from perfect on that aspect, but I do make and honest effort at it.  When my rent was recently raised I was very unhappy at first, but then I started seeing 'For Rent' signs near by and decided to check things out.

Now the first house that I really wanted was way beyond my budget, and I didn't want the hassles of dealing with a roommate either, so I kept looking....  and found a 2 bedroom house w/ a large fenced yard....  but it didn't hit me right away as being "the one"..so I kept looking.  But then something inside said to keep going back to the little 2 bedroom and decided that that was the house that we needed.  And so for the past two weeks we have been packing, moving, unpacking and sorting!!

Oh, did I also happen to mention aside from that in the middle of it all college started back up again and then there is the full time graveyard shift job...but you know what, I am so grateful for it all!  I absolutely love this lil house!  It is nothing fancy and has so many layers of paint on the walls and cabinet doors that it takes a bit of effort to shut some of them.  But it is so cute and has so many built-ins for storage, plus a small one car sized storage space...how could I not be grateful for the little bit of bad that happens!

I thank the Goddesses and Gods every day for showing me my path and that it is okay to be upset at the bad, but to find the good in it and keep on moving forward!

Crafty Idea...

Well I am one more step closer to creating my craft idea!  I have taken the rough sketches and drawn them onto plain paper so I can scan and upload them to my computer.  From there I can make sizing adjustments and do some fine tuning!

Then, once I get prototypes completed and stock built up I will go to Ebay and Etsy and set up accounts and they will be available for purchase!  And of course I am doing this at the same time I am preparing for moving into a new place...guess it was a good thing that I chose to extend my vacation for the next week or so!

Oh....you may ask what it is that I am crafting????   Well it is a surprise! =-)  But, I will say that there will be magical elements and are versatile enough to be used for anything....More to come!

Lady Bug is back to school....

Ahhh, the seventh grade.  For better or worse, I remember my first year of what was called then, junior high, nowadays it is considered middle school...And now my youngest is stepping into this new world.  She is nervous, but happy to start tomorrow.  A brand new adventure is awaiting for her, from already planning the two semi-formal dances with her best friends, to the heartache of unfounded gossip and rumors that seem to creep in when you aren't looking somewhere along the line.

Fortunately she has a good head on her shoulders, but it also goes along with an even bigger heart on her sleeve.  But what can you do but give what advise you can, share your experiences and how you handled situations, and just give your never ending love and support.  Explain to her that sometimes people think they live in a "reality" show and can say or do whatever they think of without any tact, manners, or filters.  One bonus of my lovely daughter is she is so darn mature for her age!  Another one of those for better or worse moments...hahaha

Well I wish her, and all the munchkins going back to school, nothing but the best and I hope they discover who they are and what they want to do later in life so they can begin learning now!

White Light...

Two steps ahead...One step back!  For as much as it maybe tiresome... It can be useful, painful at times, but useful.  You can use it to find the hidden strength within yourself, and with that strength you can inspire others.  No matter what comes your way you can still persevere.

For all the difficult times we are going through, there are those that are going through worse.  This is where we need to shine and give that extra helping hand.  I am grateful to have a roof over my head, a car to drive, food to eat, a full time job with benefits, I am going to school to have my bachelor's degree by next summer, and I have two amazing kids that are healthy and happy.  My rent and bills sometimes get behind, but I somehow manage to pull through.  I may be without for a time, but it gets caught up in the end.  I live in income based apartments and my rent was just doubled because of promotions at work...but that is okay, it will work out like it is supposed too!

There are countless people in this country and around the world that do not have it as well as I do, so I have always tried to be humble in knowing the fact that what I have can always be taken away at the drop of a hat.  I guess the thoughts are on my mind are we are in desperate need as a country and as a planet to pull together and not panic, and realize we are all in this together.

Perhaps if we radiate the Spirit of White Light and Positive Energy we can cause a shift in the nervous energy.  I know I will be surrounding myself and my kids with White Light and mirrors reflecting outward to keep the negativity away.  If we banish enough of the negative energy, perhaps it could happen!

I know I have a rather PolyAnna outlook on things, but isn't positive better than negative?  Will it really hurt to try??  At least it is a step in the right direction.....

Summertime Broke Blues

Well after three weeks of not having phone or internet I am back!  I chose not to go to school in the summer because my concentration level is not where it should be cuz my Lady Bug is out of state visiting her dad and grandparents.  But that also means that no extra financial aid.....funny how you can only rob peter to pay paul so many times before it catches up with ya!  But, this is only temporary and by the end of the year my car is paid off and I won't be in that situation again...so excited!!

I would like to thank my new followers!  I have missed reading everyone's blogs and keeping up on things.  But I am back and am looking forward to catching up and writing again!

Extremists... What are they really afraid of??

I have always wondered this, what would drive a person to think that they need to determine what everybody should be doing within their private lives? The only answer I have ever come up with is control?!!

Power over another, by control, is what is needed to maintain a sense of order in the world they have created and they do not want to let go of this control. Unfortunately this is a very detrimental view of how the world truly works in an "organic" matter of way. I guess it follows suit to the view of as individuals we are very intelligent people, but put those same people together as a group, then intelligence level drops considerably. This is why I think many Pagans, Witches, etc. are solitary practitioners. Not to mention if you are of another sexual orientation.

While I was looking at my FaceBook Page today I saw many articles that are shared and that cover the topics of the Extreme Left and Right and what they are proliferating about various topics...sex, politics, and and other religion besides their own. All of these topics seem to bad according to them. They feel that they should be able to tell you how to have sex, why their candidate is the only approved one who you have to vote for, and what one singular God who you must worship and pray to because if you do not you will burn in the fiery depths of Hell! Because your God is the only one who controls your life and you must constantly pray for redemption because you are not a worthy enough human being on your own to have a kind thought, caring heart, and a generous soul, without the express consent of this God and his chosen leaders who give you their permission to do so.

Is that thought a little extreme...from what I keep reading about and hearing, I honestly think that as a "group" this is what the Extremist are thinking, doing, and saying ...on a regular basis. The we as "individuals" within the extremist views are compassionate, loving, and generous, but somehow have lost the way to think for themselves.

But still the questions are there, and what can "we" as the in the middle type of people do to stop the onslaught of this negative thinking? I realize people are in a panic over the economy, two major wars going on, and all you hear are negative things in the media. Why don't we "pay it forward" a bit and start a stream of positive light and energy to ease some of the tension that is building? Something similar happened in WWII when many Witches got together to stave off an attack on the London shores. And I did try to find the source for this, and unfortunately was not able to find it, but I did remember watching it on a documentary from the History channel or similar channel. So I know it can be done. All we would really need to do is set a time, no matter your time zone, and send out our White Light Energy.

Imagine a wave of White Light being sent out every hour or so around the planet....

Bitter Sweet 4th of July...

While I am so grateful I live in the USA...how sad it is that so many indigenous peoples have lost so much, just for our present gain! The loss of culture, language, and the arts of many native lands of this America! It is shameful and disparaging to think of the atrocities that happened in our past and even up to this modern age, but alas I guess the one great hope is that it is better than other countries...at least that is my rationalization that gets me through! I just wish everyone a safe 4th of July!!!!

Energy & White Light!

I seem to work with a lot of energy... not the "I bounce around off the walls" type of energy, but more of the I feel your synergy type of energy. I have always been able to sense someone's "vibe" and when they have something on their brain.

So lately it seems as quite a few people are having a funky vibe about the energy that surrounds them...me? I have quite the opposite happening, I am feeling renewed and alive, which hasn't happened in quite awhile...perhaps that is what is funky about it?!! It is something that has changed with the energy that is around me and it happens to work out in the positive!

When I have friends who are feeling down, need a bit of positive luck, or extra help to fend of psychic attacks, or just a simple "I love you and protect you" veil I usually offer to give them some supportive energy ..White Light, and they know what I mean when I say that phrase.

I basically have them surround themselves with white light, performing a sort of protective barrier if you will. If they are being psychically attacked I have them put up a wall of mirrors around themselves, reflecting outward, to reflect the negative away. And if I "see" other colors when I am talking to them I will tell them to add it their energy field. At the same time I envision them surrounded by White Light and being able to safely fight off the negative energies and renewing their own.

As the Fourth of July approaches and the celebrations begin on the long weekend, I offer White Light to all in that they have a safe, joyous and happy 4th of July celebration! White Light and be safe!

Ok...Shameless Plug #1

Since one of my passions in life is sex, which ironically do not always go hand in hand!  There is sex without passion....and quite frankly it sucks!  So with that in mind I have a side business where I sell sexual toys, bath spa products, novelties, and books and videos on sexual education...or for just plain fun!

The company I work for is Intimate Expressions and you can reach my website at http://www.mybagoftoys.com  and please feel free to browse around the online catalog.  Shop at your leisure, and all orders are shipped confidencially to your home.  Or if you decide you can have an in home party with demonstrations for a girl's night in, bachelorette or even a couple's party from me or another local rep from your area!

So please stop by http://www.mybagoftoys.com and add some passion to your life!!

So far, so good...

I hate the fact I almost think the other shoe is going to fall and I am almost waiting for it.  But at the same time I feel so full of energy and have a weight lifted off of me because I feel so open about life now.  And what is funny I think that part of it has not to do with the fact I have chosen to be open about my spiritual beliefs...it is that I recognized I was off balance...which can be pretty important to a Gemini...I was hiding and I was to worried about presenting only one face of who I was....Must be professional and all that good stuff!

What started this renewal journey was that I realized I was talking to the "munchkins" (my unofficial term of affection for the kids) where I work and I wasn't practicing what I preach.  I was so busy worried making sure I kept my professional "face" on, that I wasn't letting the other side of me out for air.  And for the longest time it didn't bother me...noticeably anyway.  Then like all things that are left broken and not fixed, it built up and people started to say that I didn't seem happy anymore.  I couldn't put my finger on it, it just wasn't "clicking over" in my head.  Then the voice inside my head said I just wasn't being true to myself, this is why I wasn't being "me."  I had lost the passion of exploration and self expression for the sake of being "proper"...I went overboard on the conservative side.

I realize as we get older we have to be be more responsible, something I am kinda hit and miss at so far.  But I am getting better and I know I have done better than I give myself credit for.  I guess that I keep waiting for the other shoe to fall is because I am waiting for friends and acquaintances to walk away.  At the same time I know that if someone is not accepting of me then that is their decision.  Just as I make decisions who I allow into my world.  I did lose an aquaintance on FaceBook, but it didn't really surprise me who it was.  Most of her status updates were about surrendering to Lord, which I don't believe, but it is her belief and that is great for her. But it goes back to a person being able to choose the who, what, where, when, and whys in life!  I like my lesson for today! 

Sex, Magick, and Rock n Roll!

My twist on the old saying " Sex, Drugs and Rock n Roll"  while I am partial to alcohol, never been into the whole drug thing.  But as I have gotten older I also have realized that alcohol is giving me heartburn after I drink it...for the next couple of days later...so looks as though the partying stage of my life has changed as well! And I am okay with that...I've had alot of fun and things just change with time.

But the three things listed above are my passions...as a individual human being, not as a mom, sibling or co-worker, but me as a person.  I am also not talking the perverted, obsessive sex thing either.  I am talking about a natural expression of a person enjoying the physical passion of sex.  The exploration of consenting adults sharing an intimate moment.  I guess you could say this is why I am an independent romance consultant for Intimate Expressions.  It is a adult home-party and we sell products from spa & bath, lingerie, novelties up to sex toys, enhancing lubes, and light bondage kits.  All for good healthy fun with your partner.  I guess one of the reasons why I love to sell toys is just because I want people to be educated and be able to experiment and be comfortable with their bodies and their feelings of passion and desire.  Sex is not a bad thing, quite the opposite in fact.  It is the denial of these feelings that can cause issues.  And to throw the disclaimer out there from the beginning:  I am talking about legal, mutually consenting, with total understanding of each others personal limits and expectations between adults sex!  With that out of the way, I hope it will discourage the nay sayers and perverted folks.  I just want to be able to have a simple conversation once in awhile about any subject, and sometimes it may be about sex or its related topics.

Magick is something I have been involved with since I was a child.  I think one of my aunt's was more into witchcraft than she let on, but she was definitely an influence on my curiosity of the subject.  I am a solitary practitioner who until just recently has decided to live it out in the open, not in a "I'm going out wearing robes today" type, but a if I choose to talk about it I will, much like other folks talk about their religions or beliefs.  I offer simple blessings, lighting of candles and sending of energy. I will even try to read a card or two for you.  All with the will of positive energy and causing harm to none.  I am not here for religious debates, I am here to just be able to talk freely and joyously about the powers of nature and energy.

Rock and Roll has been one of my biggest passions since I was about eleven .  Def Leppard is my absolute all time favorite!!!!!  Their albums have always been there when there is a major transition in my life or whatever is going on, I even have their name tattooed on left bicep.  What can I say...they are "My Boys" and always will be.  I am also very eclectic in my musical tastes...big band and swing, golden oldies, new age and blues as well!  But hard rock/heavy metal music is my passion...it gets my blood pumpin!  It makes me feel alive is the best way to describe it!

So this is me, and part of my world... You are welcome to come and enjoy the journey with me as long as it is filled with the same joyous and positive energy as this is meant to be!  Thank you for stopping in and reading awhile, hope you can leave a comment or two if you have the time, if not, enjoy your day and I hope it is full of positive white light!  Blessings to all!!