Thursday, December 19, 2013

I'm not keeping up with my title!! Haha

Yep, when I started this blog I did not ever in a million years think I would be going through a dry spell (Yep, talking the sex part here..)  WTF happened??? On Christmas Eve it will be .....  Ugh, shudder to even say it out loud and in a public forum... but it has been two years!  

Granted some has been by choice, some has been by fear, just because it has been soooo long and I have no social life.  What is a girl to do?  Many years ago I had my heart so utterly torn apart I lost all feeling and empathy for another human being.. I just went through the motions of everyday life.  Then I met someone, it was just a minor distraction.  Met someone else, and I really like him, but I FUBAR'd on my way to trying to make things work in a greater good kind of way, and that ended.

Then after long email chats I met another man, (who was also emotionally unavailable) and we just stayed friends after dating for almost a year.  Was introduced to another guy a year later, ( yep, first dry spell) and he was as sweet as can be.. just way to overly clingy.. literally physically clingy.  And after living on my own for years, that just wasn't working.  I am selfish now when it comes to my space.  And that was the beginning of my second dry spell.. ugh.  A whole years worth!!!

Thank goodness I had a friend who had always been on the Sex Bucket List who was more than happy to break that streak  :D  And so was I! 

But it has been two years since then, and I am a very primal and passionate person.  Again I say WTF happened??  Am I so out of sorts that bad I have shut myself off to even bothering.. well, yeah kinda.  I've had my chart done and palm read, and a psychic friend tell me all pretty much the same thing.. most of my early forties I will be without a partner, but after at about 46-ish I should find someone who will balance me out.  Gee... only two and a half years to go!!  (Yeah, I originally put down three years, but liked the 'shorter' version better.. haha)

So for 2014, I think I will expand my out look, social circle, and business... working towards a year of abundance and prosperity... and shake the fears that have been holding me back in life, love, and spiritual growth.  I mean heck, what else have I got to do for the next two and a half years... I'll have my shit together by then!  

Thank you, White Light and Blessings! <3