Concert

Recently I had the joy and opportunity to take my son, daughter in law, and daughter to go see an amazing concert.
Def Leppard are my boys! I love them so much I have them tattooed on my left upper bicep.  Tesla had always had my heart from listening to them and seeing them with Def Leppard in the late 80s. And many a great memory of listening to Poison with my high school best friend.
Both of my kids, 27 and 18, have said that they wish the grew up in my era. They love my music... at least a hell of a lot of it.. ha ha
So I finally was able to take my son, who's favorite band Poison, and everyone to a concert in June.
Sound was awesome, all vocals on point. Performances were from all was spectacular!
It was a great momma moment for me. The best  a part of course was the happiness of the kids, and the biggest surprise was my daughter saying, "Wow, I can't believe I just saw Def Leppard! "
I was able to take them to see Motley Crue on their farewell tour, and they loved it.
I took my daughter to see Chevelle shortly there after, but this by far was the greatest reaction so far.
It makes my heart happy to know I could do a little something to make them as happy as I when I see my band play.

Protection Majick... What are the limits??

So after reading an inspiring comment.. I wonder.. can you really keep yourself  from being that jaded?

Can you cast a spell or create a charm to keep yourself from being hurt?

Nope, it is all just a crap shoot.  You either decide to throw yourself out there, or you hide in the shadows.  I am to the point of not hiding any more.  Yes, I am a fuck up.  Yes, I don't follow through.  But. I will give my all to those who accept me, and understand that when I say I am a fuck up, and I told you all of my weaknesses from the beginning and you chose to use them against me, so be it.

I want to love, but am to bad of a character witness to allow that.  

I think that is the greatest power you can have.

You lie, cheat, and steal from me.. and still I will survive.

I will suck at life for awhile, but I am still standing.  Yes, I am in a moment in glory.  Yea for me.  Will it last?? I hope it does.  Will I retreat to past habits and hide... Yep, I am sure I will.  This is me, this is my life.

I can, and always will, be the one who looks at life in a positive manner, knowing the true consequences of my decisions.  I tried to reach out, I tried to lay it all out on the table, I gave the benefit of the doubt.  Sometimes things just throw you for a fucking loop.  If you don't like what I have to say..scroll on by.. trust me I won't be butt hurt.  If you have a truly thought provoking comment, please post.  I want to learn.  Trolls need not apply... you are a waste of space and you know it. Truly you do, but you have to try to big somehow.

I know I want many things in my life, I have burnt the sage, I have tried to come to grips with the fact I should just be alone.  Underneath it all... I want to have intimate relationships, and I  want to let the guard down.  But, my hopes are to high, and I can be okay with that.  Not always happy, but okay. 

I will cast my circle, I will continue to Protect myself with the knowledge that I have.  No one is meant to be utterly alone, and that is not possible unless you truly keep yourself locked away.  For those, I want to help.  Can I help an AskHole.. nope... But do you really want to talk?? I can give my two cents worth.  You may not like my answer, but I am honest with you.

So, throw me a line.. I will either give you a mind blowing reality, or give you fuel to burn your own fire.. what do you have to lose?  You tell me.....