Fittin In..

So how many munchkins out there are like me.. wondering how you can fit in, but at the same time not wanting to "play that game"??

I mean I have always been that rebel without a clue, walking my own walk, and saying fuck you to the mass majority.  Keeping most out of arms reach.

But sometimes when you get older you start to look for a group to hang with, a "Ya-Ya Sisterhood" to share your thoughts, drives, and similarities with... even when that is, and has been, against what you have done your whole life.  You have chosen to step outside of your comfort zone! 

Is it really for you though??  Is it just your ego holding you back?? Is it normal to feel almost like your skin crawls trying to fit in, or can you really put on a mask to get the message out there?  And if you do use a mask.. is your true message going to be heard?  Are you just feelin butt-hurt for things not happening as fast as you want them to happen???

These are the things that float through my head.  I have a lot to offer, I just don't think I always have the way to express it.  I can be a unique pill to swallow if you can't see the real me.  And I have gotten used to that over the years... not every one is the prom queen.  Maybe it is a lack of patience, maybe it is a lack of effort.. but really should it be an "effort"??  This is my conundrum .. do I say "look at me, look at me!"  or do I just continue on my merry little happy assed way, and keep trying to keep on, keeping on??  Waiting for the light-bulb to finally click on and see there are other people out there that have been in the shadows as well...

Well I like to switch my own switch, so we will see what turns on..